All posts tagged: hospital

December 19

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From the cancer ward a view, a dream of a lake.  All this glass is sterile, frosted– we soften everything we can soften. Sometimes with meds. I recall how, when half-crazed, you tried to leave and carry off a decorative vase, and your paintings got much wilder, vivid wet. There is no crimson here, only windows the color of sea-glass, and clean lacquered pine. It is peaceful and nice– so quiet, floors above the street, the orderly bridges, elegant rooftops, that I can hear blunt dread roll in my stomach as I […]

December 16

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At work, tragedy rooms– To favor a side is not the same as being wrong. These families, they furnish the place with love and grief– any place can be a home, except alone. Tonight the city lights don’t remind me of anything. Sometimes it’s as if this heater isn’t even on.

May 5

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In the distance the sky a turgid pewter gray to a lowering blue but here it was just a bit of wind and waiting– . Catatonic in the elevator the woman said how is your day going my husband just fell twelve feet but he’s going to be ok I think he’s in surgery now and asked for positive vibes . It never did thunder so I did instead but a peal or an appeal […]

March 13

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Some things aren’t as they seem this isn’t snow it’s petals from the tree see you can still smell the perfume sharply tinged at the end with life and green vigor not wholly sweet not artificial a welcome change now spending days in rooms that breathe for you and bleed for you if you lack the volition rooms full of the gone involuntarily and also voluntarily even those we drag back and to what– here […]

March 11

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A rainbow of spine boards lean against the wall like surfboards the pre-dawn rosy past where the ambulances drop off somewhere in that fog out there is a harbor no beaches though it seems we’re on the edge of something here the set of red beacons that encircle the heliport promise both safety and danger welcome but stay back

February 26

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Wednesday the tired wrung-out day the lightest of rains falling and sometime last night the kid ended up coding went back to the Unit and this morning my head aches my dispo brittle in so many ways of course there’s no such thing as silence on this floor it is a living place it groans with life and at its leaving rattles like the IV pole of a patient making his rounds all morning long […]